To this day......

Being a Mother I can truly say I have my days, I would like to say I have more good than bad.. but honestly that's not the case the last two years;   I need to be honest with myself and just sit back and enjoy theses moments with my children. Theses are the years I cant ever replace, Sitting in my shoes today I would've never thought I would be living this life but I cant change the good from the bad or the bad from the good; all I can to do as a mother and a wife is be strong and loving, which I admit I'm failing at terribly these last two years something has gotten ahold of me I cant seem to shake; life has thrown so many obstacles my way that Ive had to dodge; while others Ive just had to accept and take as god's way of showing me I can pull through this; and in the end it has no choice but to work out. After today I can admit it was rough I  had so many mixed emotions running through me and the more I tried to calm down the more I would get upset, my dad is my weakness for many reasons but most importantly that's my daddy he always has my back 100% and doesn't look at me as a failure hes is my hero and my coach at the same time; we have a bond many children today don't have with their parents; although he frustrates me at times I'm always there to catch his fall, as he would do the same for me. Starting today I need to have patience with myself and enjoy life and be that mom my kids are proud of ; from this day forward I'm seeing my life change for the better whether it has different intentions or not; I'm making a promise to myself and my kids everyday I'm here for them, I know when it come's down to the hurt feelings or the temper tantrums; and  I'm the worst mom in town ;I can handle that but I cant handle any longer knowing that my kids are my everything and I'm putting their life on hold for my selfish being theses last 2 years I can admit my wrong doing and can now happily say I'm strong enough to stand my ground and Be that mom...