Hurry up!! Were gonna be late..

So starting my first post last night; I realized going to bed last night and looking at life at a different angle I would start by waking up with a smile on my face; followed by giving my bundles of joy a few hugs and kiss along the way;  I made that promise to myself and its SET IN STONE ...Our morning's here usually consist of a screaming match and then rolls into tieing shoes and popping a pop tart or waffle in the toaster and we all make a mad dash out the door starting the car not even giving it a chance to idol and driving in the fast lane. What kind of life is that; well lets see stressful is #1 and not to mention starting my day off with a ultimate headache is never pleasant but seems to be the story of my life; so we are going to start alittle system called the freindly mommy chart and basically its going to take some time to work this out but im determined with the kids help we can manage this; and basically its going to consist of a hmm you know those plastic door hangers and you can put shoes in them yea those. and some index cards and it will go in order on everything that needs to be done get dressed, brush hair, brush teeth etc: and every morning when their done doing their daily duties they will move the completed card to the end; I think this will better assist our moring grumps into some happy fun filled campers; and this chart will be their guide to set them into a organized state of mind in the morning, and will give me a chance to make my scrumptous coffee.
For those of you that know me Im constantly looking for a way to better organize my life; and I think this will suit my kids well and me too. whats not better than having a organized life with a cup of coffee. Hey count me in.. So Today so far turned out somewhat smoothly we hit alittle bumps in the road here and there but guess what mommy was there to turn that frown up side down. and not yell HOLY SHYT mom did it.. I think my daugter about fell over seriously to see her reaction was almost scary wait mom are you ok. your not yelling.. yes honey its mommy. Looking back this is the life I want; I am and I thrive to be. And guess what Ive got so much more to offer my kids. This life in the fast lane is sometimes fun especially when my little dare devil son is screaming in the back to go faster; ekk thats scarys hes totally got his daddy's outlook on life. But most of all these are the times I need to cherish and will continue to be at my kids beck and call.

To this day......

Being a Mother I can truly say I have my days, I would like to say I have more good than bad.. but honestly that's not the case the last two years;   I need to be honest with myself and just sit back and enjoy theses moments with my children. Theses are the years I cant ever replace, Sitting in my shoes today I would've never thought I would be living this life but I cant change the good from the bad or the bad from the good; all I can to do as a mother and a wife is be strong and loving, which I admit I'm failing at terribly these last two years something has gotten ahold of me I cant seem to shake; life has thrown so many obstacles my way that Ive had to dodge; while others Ive just had to accept and take as god's way of showing me I can pull through this; and in the end it has no choice but to work out. After today I can admit it was rough I  had so many mixed emotions running through me and the more I tried to calm down the more I would get upset, my dad is my weakness for many reasons but most importantly that's my daddy he always has my back 100% and doesn't look at me as a failure hes is my hero and my coach at the same time; we have a bond many children today don't have with their parents; although he frustrates me at times I'm always there to catch his fall, as he would do the same for me. Starting today I need to have patience with myself and enjoy life and be that mom my kids are proud of ; from this day forward I'm seeing my life change for the better whether it has different intentions or not; I'm making a promise to myself and my kids everyday I'm here for them, I know when it come's down to the hurt feelings or the temper tantrums; and  I'm the worst mom in town ;I can handle that but I cant handle any longer knowing that my kids are my everything and I'm putting their life on hold for my selfish being theses last 2 years I can admit my wrong doing and can now happily say I'm strong enough to stand my ground and Be that mom...